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why i hate pumpkins but i’m still grateful

is it really pumpkin season again? like, already??!! it seems like only yesterday (or you know, at least last week) that me and dutch were hanging out at a local pumpkin joint picking out a big orange.

picking the perfect pumpkin

which okay, to the average person just means, ohhhhhh, it’s fall now. time to break out the autumn wardrobe complete with cute boots and buttery leather jackets and get ready to sip icky pumpkin lattes while prancing down the sidewalk over the brown leaves that have fallen ever so beautifully to the ground.

but for me, oh, it means something entirely different. in fact, it means that almost 365 days have gone by and daggone it, i’m still unemployed after being laid off last october.

ughhhh!! can you feel the frustration in my type written words? it’s there, trust me, look a little closer at your screen or re-read a sentence or something.

i’m in complete and utter shock over it. a year? really? and i have to admit that i literally went into a mini depression after seeing those stupid pumpkins painted with goofy faces at the grocery store yesterday. that just really set it off for me.

it was an awful, terrible reminder of the almost year that has slipped right on by while i’ve sent out countless resumes and gone on interviews with rude folks who couldn’t even contact me back to say they decided to go with someone else. and did i mention the countless resumes i’ve sent out?

yeah, that.

but sometimes you have to look at things with your grateful eye and push all those other feelings aside (you know, the anger of not getting responses to the countless resumes you’ve sent out) and see the blessings right there in front of you. you can’t sulk forever, right? a minute will do. or maybe a few days, but you gotta get over it at some point. so i’ve made up my mind to look at the brighter side of seeing those stupid stinky pumpkins for sale.

1) i’m blessed that i even woke up that day to see the pumpkins. helloooooooo!! definitely blessing numero uno.

2) i’m grateful for having a working vehicle to drive to the grocery store. i could walk there if i really needed to, but i’m far too lazy for alla that even though my body could use a good, brisk walk. but you get my drift. car, blessing #2.

3) i’m blessed to have gas in my car! now granted the grocery store is all of two minutes (by car) from where i live and it doesn’t take much gas to get there, the point is, i had enough gas to get there. and i didn’t even have to beg for money at the pump.

4) speaking of money, i’m grateful for even having it to spend at the grocery store. i mean, it ain’t much, but i had enough to get what i needed, right? uh huh, right.

5) i’m blessed to have working legs to walk through the parking lot and right by those dumb pumpkins that were sitting out in front of the store.

6) i’m blessed to have been able to even see the daggone pumpkins, even if it was through eyeglass lenses that always seem to easily get too smudgey for my liking.

7) speaking of those lenses, i’m blessed to have gotten them for FREE through coastal.com. go get you some, but know that you do have to pay for shipping.

8) i’m blessed to have had the money to pay for shipping so i could get my FREE glasses from coastal.com. it took a few weeks to get my shipping money up (haha!!), but i did. love my glasses. go see them here. you’ll love them too.

9) i’m blessed that even though my little family’s pickiness drives me absolutely insane neither of them like pumpkin flavored stuff. the smell of pumpkin pie, bread, cookies or whatever would be the death of me. especially since i ain’t feeling pumpkins right now.

10) i’m grateful for having cable tv and a dvr to record all of my reality shows in case i miss them. i realize this is really random and has absolutely nothing to do with pumpkins or seeing their silly faces at the grocery store the other day but it’s still so very true.

contemplating pork n’ beans

remember when i posted about having a crappy 2011? well, part of the crapaliciousness of 2011 was due to being laid off. it’s okay. really, it is. i kinda saw it coming. not that that means i knew how to feel about it when the hammer actually came down though, you know?

i’ve never been laid off before and let me tell you i went through a full range of emotions in the very beginning. the first one being a freak out emotion (if you can call it that)…”how am i going to pay my bills??” “oh my goodness, Christmas is coming. i’m going to be so so broke!!” “my unemployment check is how much? no, that can’t be right, you’re joking right? oh, you’re not joking…”

but i got over it. my faith in the Lord is strong so i got myself together and came to the realization that it’s time to pick up it on up and move on.

that’s more of the idealized version of what actually takes place. you know, “pick it on up and move on.” what is being laid off really like on a day-to-day? well, there’s the dropping the child off to school and walking po’ charlie (i promise to post a pic of him soon). then there’s this huge block of time in the middle of the day until i have to walk po’ charlie again and pick the child back up. i’ve managed to fill up those hours doing all sorts of things: job searching and more job searching, washing dishes, washing clothes, talking on the phone, folding clothes, blogging, cleaning the bathroom, dusting, talking on the phone, painting picture frames, googling tutorials on a variety of topics, talking on the phone, making jewelry, dancing to videos on vh1 soul… you know, that kinda thing.

i really should be spending mucho grande time in the gym, but that’s another subject.

then there are times when i am slam bored! you hear me? times when i just sit around and contemplate things. what kind of job should i be looking for? should i stay in social media and web management or do something totally different like become one of those sign turners because, i mean, every business needs a sign turner, right? oh, decisions, decisions!

and then there are the times that i get way inside my head like this one particular recent day: after preparing some pork n’ beans and hot dogs for a little late lunch—not because we’re so terribly broke over here, but because dangit i actually like pork n’ beans and hot dogs—when i wondered, exactly what kind of beans are in pork n’ beans?!?!

i bet you don’t know either.

i decided to google the mysterious bean and here are ten facts gathered from wikipedia about pork n’ beans that i just know you are dying to know.

here goes…

  • pork n’ beans generally consists of navy beans stewed with pork
  • commercially canned pork n’ beans were introduced in the united states during the 1880s
  • a recipe for pork n’ beans was included in the 1832 cookbook the american frugal housewife
  • according to the 1975 better homes and garden heritage cookbook, canned pork n’ beans was the first convenience food
  • pork n’ beans is a stereotypical cowboy food dish
  • pork n’ beans is an american canned classic
  • the dish became popular when h. j. heinz came out with their version in 1895
  • pork n’ beans are usually stewed with tomatoes
  • the dish was mentioned in the song “the old chisholm trail”: “oh, it’s bacon and beans most every day/i’d as soon be a-eatin’ prairie hay”
  • but what wikipedia failed to mention is that pork n’ beans were also mentioned in the hugely popular go-go song “sardines” by the one and only junkyard band. dc stand up!!!!! like to hear it? here it go…


and there you have it, all the pork n’ beans facts you’ll ever need in life.